I am absolutely petrified right now. Of child birth and of being a Mommy. I have no idea what I am getting myself into. I'm excited but scared. I plan on going all natural for several reasons. I'm not so afraid of the contractions as I am of the pushing and actual birth. I think that will be extremely painful.
When I'm nervous, I make lists. Here is my list of things I need to pack:
- chapstick
- tennis ball and other massaging instruments
- hairbands
- socks
- toothbrush and small tube of toothpaste
- conditioner (shampoo dries my hair out really bad, so I only use it sparingly) in a travel size container
- body soap in a travel size container
- washcloth
- face wash
- deodorant
- my own towels
- my own pillow(s)
- some type of sleep mask
- camera and charger
- video camera with extra tapes and charger
- ipod and accesories
- laptop?
- nursing bras
- nursing PJs and comfortable pant bottoms
- nursing pillow
- nursing cover
- cream for the boobs
- nursing pads
- baby book
- dermoplast/epicream
- tucks pads
- depends?
- under garments
- going home outfit
- list of people to notify about the birth
- cell phone and charger
- notepad and pen
- thank you cards?
I'm also making Victor download the contraction master application for his iphone. Because when I'm nervous, I plan. Obsessively. I tend to get this kind of nervous after I hang out with my friend who has two beautiful little girls. For some reason being with a baby scares me! I remember leaving the hospital after my Mom and visited her when her second daughter was born back in early November and being so stressed out I started crying. I was just so overwhelmed and scared for what I was about to experience. And the way I deal with this is to plan and make lists and act like a neurotic freak. Such is the life of me!
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